2016 wasn’t my year or was it?


Everyone told me second year out of school is the best, you finally get a good routine and have more freedom. Yet 2016 which I hoped would ‘be my year’ was nothing like I expected and it started to go down hill from day one - 1/1/16.

All year I had believed 2016 was not my year, one of my worst years yet – my health declined so much I needed a carer, I could barely walk, I stopped university (the last thing I ever wanted to do), hardly able to see my friends and lost relationships due to me being sick.

However I am starting to see maybe this was my year?? Sounds insane but it was the year I grew as a person. I matured. I had to adapt to having nothing and being okay with that. I learnt to be patient and appreciative of peoples care for me. I lost friends yes, but I gained stronger friendships too – as the people who really cared stuck by me and we grew closer then ever.

I was able to achieve some things I wanted and really learn to appreciate the little things in life. Some days I would be in bed all day, hardly see anyone but I would just wait for the sunset. The goal was to get up and see the sunset and take a picture. Which may sound crazy but it is what kept me going. I felt something almost spiritual about looking at the sunset, it made me realise I really am lucky to have this chance to rest so I can properly recover.


I evolved as a person and learnt to accept that things aren’t always what you hope or planned. My goals from such a young age were derailed and I learnt to just let it go, even though I deserve it as much as anyone. In saying this of course there are times when its hard, everything is too much, nothing is what you planned and you are not where you want to be but I think its important to let yourself be sad to accept the situation. You are strong, but don’t need to be all the time. Experience the pain because it will make you stronger.

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23 comments:

  1. I'm so glad it ended up being a good year for you and that you able to grow! Sounds like it would have been a difficult time but you're resilience has obviously showed through. Well done! Hope 2017 is a great year for you :)
    Holly x | http://www.thechroniclesofholly.com/ | https://www.bloglovin.com/blogs/chronicles-holly-13610625

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    1. Thanks so much Holly! I hope 2017 is amazing for you as well! :)

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  2. I'm glad you grew up a little bit more and became more mature in 2016! I hope your health however will be better in 2017! Happy New Year!

    I'm following you on GFC :)

    mystylishcorner.blogspot.ba

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    1. Thanks so much, yeah it was a year of growth for sure :)

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  3. Staying in bed the whole day and waking up to take pictures of the sunset is so simplistic yet beautiful and calming. That makes me smile knowing that's how easy it is to "appreciate the littlest things".

    I'm glad you're able to grow and to embrace a side of you as you mature.

    Following you on Bloglovin'!

    helloteri.wordpress.com

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    1. It really is, you just have to stop and look for the beauty xx

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  4. Loved this blog post, thanks for sharing.

    Patricia Stelmach // Patricia

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  5. I love the positive attitude you have towards your year. I like how you took the good even with all the challenging situations you had, this just shows how strong you are. I hope this year is even better to you and that you keep your positive spirit ans take the positive out of everything it brings you.
    btw I also hope your health is much better.
    Have a great weekend Susie :)
    xo
    Sauniya | Find Your Bliss ♡

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    1. Thanks so much Sauniya, really appreciate your comments of encouragement! I hope the same for you too <3

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  6. I'm not out of school yet, so I've still got the same expectations of next year because it's school all over again!
    Aleeha xXx
    http://www.halesaaw.com/

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    1. Hope it is a good year for you :)

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  7. great blog .
    i follow you, please follow me

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  8. I agree, pain definitely makes you stronger, I didn't have the best year in 2015 but it made me stronger and 2016 was a good for me, glad you ended up having a good year :)

    S x | SHELISES WORLD

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    1. I'm glad it made you stronger it definitely has the power to do that! xx

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  9. Great Post! Very interesting!!
    Have a nice day!
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  10. You're a really strong person if you can take all of that and direct it towards developing yourself. I really hope 2017 is a much better year for you! :) xx

    Velvet Blush

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    1. Thanks so much! I hope it is too ahha wishing you a good 2017 also xx

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  11. Seems like you are stronger more than you know, you even were able to blog about it. I hope this time will be your year, make it yours and claim it in God's name. Wishing you joy, comfort and strength.

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